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The Best Job in the World

Sunday, May 10th, 2009
Mom and Binary Boy (5 days old)

Mom and Binary Boy (5 days old)

Beginning when you’re very young, everyone asks you what you want to be when you grow up. For a long time, I wanted to be an artist – as in paintings. As I got older, my idea of what I wanted to be when I grew up changed. For a while I wanted to be a biologist, then an oceanographer, then a geographer, then a park ranger, then I flirted briefly with the idea of joining the Navy, then a nutritionist, then a teacher, and then I went for my Veterinary Technician degree. Obviously, none of them worked out and for the most part, I’ve worked in administration.

Through all of my years trying to find something that I found fulfilling, it never occurred to me, as a little girl, that I could be a mom when I grew up. As young children, we all take our moms, and everything she does for us, for granted. And besides, a mom doesn’t get paid money for her job and she doesn’t have to go into an office, or even dress up…so does it count?

As a woman who’s worked since she was 15 years old and now a new mom, I feel I can say that yes, it counts. Not only does it count as a “real” job, it is possibly the most important job on the planet. Moms are caring for and nurturing and molding the future adults of the world: the future husbands and wives and moms and dads of this world. It occurred to me that, for the most part, moms truly are the glue that keeps the human race together.

Even though moms don’t get a salary, paid vacation, sick leave or a pension, being a mom is a real job, and, for some women, a career. However, whether or not a woman makes a “career” of being a mom or not, being a mom is still a full-time job. Once a woman is mom, she will FOREVER be a mom, even when her child is having children of their own. It is a lifelong position that provides a challenging work place, room for growth and, best of all, unconditional love.

Even though most girls don’t really say “I want to be a mom when I grow up.”, most of us do become mothers and, I gotta tell ya, it really is the best job in the whole wide world. Oh, and those applying must be able to multi-task!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there!

A Year of Changes

Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
Happy New Year from Binary Blonde & Family!

Happy New Year from Binary Blonde & Family!

This year brought so many changes, it’s hard to wrap my brain around just all that has happened in such a short amount of time. I think instead of making a list, I’ll highlight the top three.

2008 marked our 5th wedding anniversary. It’s been an amazing five years, just Kevin and me. It’s amazing to think that just last year we were in Thailand for our anniversary. This year, however, I went into labor on our anniversary and Binary Boy was born a day after!

So, 2008 also made me a mommy to a handsome baby boy and I could write volumes on how I finally feel fulfilled with him in my life. I am honestly not sure how to explain how becoming a mom has changed me, but I can say that the changes are certainly welcomed. I can explain certain things, like patience, selflessness and unconditional love, but it’s hard to put into words just how much my whole perception has changed.

Needless to say, I can’t imagine my life without Binary Boy in it. He filled a void that I never knew I had until it was whole. :heart:

2008 also took Kevin and I to a completely different city. We moved away from everyone and everything familiar to start a new life on our own terms. It was the best decision, aside from choosing to start a family, that we’ve made during our marriage. We still wonder to each other why we didn’t move here sooner.

We cleaned and decluttered all the stuff we were toting around from our lives from even before we met, packed up what was left, rounded up the cats and moved into our first house in Austin.

Happy New Year from Binary Blonde & Family!

Happy New Year from Binary Blonde & Family!

Sure, we had purchased our condo back in California, but this house was different. This house was carefully chosen to have room for friends and family to visit and stay and to grow our child(ren) in. We picked everything out, from the tiles in the bathroom to the color of the paint on the walls. This was where we wanted to settle down and grow roots.

And now, with Binary Boy, who is the light of our life, this house is now a Home. 2008 has been a year of many changes, most (though, not all) of them positive. My life, our lives, are richer and greater than if we would have never taken a chance and accepted the inevitable that I always try and remember: that change is the only constant in this world.

Here’s hoping that 2009 brings many more positive, prosperous changes! Happy New Year, Y’all! 😉

That Cold White Stuff

Wednesday, December 10th, 2008

Surprise! Look what we woke up to this morning…

Snow at our house in Austin, Texas

Snow at our house in Austin, Texas

Snow at our house in Austin, Texas

Snow at our house in Austin, Texas

Yup, that’s snow. In central Texas. I didn’t move to Texas to wake up to snow! It’s not that I’m against snow, in theory. The concept of snow is nice and all, and it is very pretty to look at, but I am not a fan of it when I have to deal with it being outside my door step.

See, where there’s snow, there’s cold. And cold and I have been mortal enemies for my entire life. We’re not about to kiss and make up now, especially now that cold has wedged it’s way under the door and into the house and makes me wear a fleece hat all day. Grrr. It almost makes me miss being pregnant in the 100 degree weather. Almost.

On the positive side, I got to dress Binary Boy in his adorable fleece footie outfit. So, I guess the cold isn’t all that bad. 😉

Binary Boy in fleece footie outfit

Binary Boy in fleece footie outfit

He Flipped! (With Some Help)

Wednesday, October 8th, 2008

Today, I have some good news! Binary Boy flipped. He is now head down the way he should be. 😀

So, what worked? Well, unfortunately, nothing I had been trying for the past 2 weeks did, so I asked the midwives for a referral to an OB that could perform an external cephalic version. They referred me to Dr. Uribe. So, yesterday, Kevin and I went in for a consultation to see if I am a good candidate for the procedure.

Side note: If you live in Austin and need a doctor to do a version on a breech baby, Dr. Uribe is the guy to see. He’s been doing versions for 20 plus years and really knows what he’s doing.

He checked the amount of amniotic fluid around the baby via an ultrasound and felt for the amount of “give” and wiggle room available. After a few dozen other questions and filling of paperwork, he deemed me a good candidate, especially since I am between 36 and 37 weeks pregnant.

Before I made the decision to get it done or not, we also went over the risks. The most major one is the placenta detaching. If that happened, I would have to have an emergency cesarean section to deliver the baby. Which is why it’s good to be between 36 and 37 weeks pregnant – the baby is still small enough to turn, but developed enough so that we could take him home with us if it came down to an emergency cesarean. Scary thought, that one.

Since there was a very small chance that would happen, I couldn’t eat or drink anything past midnight last night. No water even. That was the toughest thing about it for me. I usually drink water throughout the night when I wake up.

Anyway, after we discussed all the risks, I made the decision to get it done. It wasn’t an easy decision for me to make, but I know that a version is much less invasive than a cesarean and I just had a feeling that Binary Boy wasn’t going to be able to flip on his own. I was told several times, by a few different people that I was somewhat small and it might be tough for him to fully turn around without some assistance.

So, first thing this morning we drove to the hospital. We went to Labor and Delivery (again, in case it happened that I would need an emergency c-section) and after some more paperwork, I was sent to my room to change into a gown.

The nurse assigned to me was awesome. She’d been a L&D nurse for 10 years and it showed in everything she did. She had me lay down in the bed and strapped a fetal heart tone monitor around my belly, as well as a monitor that measured any contractions I was having. She also inserted an IV in my wrist to deliver the muscle relaxant needed to relax the uterus.

So, after another round of 20 questions, she took my vitals, took some blood and then injected the relaxant into the IV in my wrist. Unfortunately, in addition to relaxing the uterus, it also makes you feel like you’ve just drank 10 cups of espresso… all at once. She then paged the doctor. He works next door to the hospital, so it didn’t take him long to show up. His nurse came with him, too.

After saying hello, I started feeling so dizzy and started shaking. Then my heart felt like it was going to pump right out of my chest. All a normal side effect from the relaxant. So not fun. Little did I know that was nothing compared to what was coming up.

After the initial shock of the medication wore down and I felt a little better, they removed the monitors and slathered mineral oil all over my belly. Then the doctor felt for the baby. After figuring out which way he wanted to turn him, he forcefully pushed down around the outside of the baby and turns him, using his fingers to keep him from turning back around.

Apparently, there should be very little pain involved, but I was warned that it will most certainly be uncomfortable. Yeah… it was uncomfortable.. and also painful. I have an extremely high pain tolerance, so this pain.. it was bad. My nurse grabbed my hand and got right up to my ear and kept having me breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth. Kevin also whispered stuff into my ear.

It hurt so bad at one point, I swear I didn’t hear a damn thing anyone was saying, I was just trying to get through it. I couldn’t, though. I just couldn’t deal with the pain. “Stop!” I yelled. And he did. Apparently, Binary Boy was almost flipped when I yelled that. The doctor said that “he (Binary Boy) wanted to move” and that he had almost been done. He asked me if I wanted to try it again, because, my pain is their barometer on what is okay and what is not okay. They offered me pain medication, but I refused. I could do this, damnit.

I collected myself, repositioned my hips so that they spread out a bit more (a yoga move thing), took a deep breath and told him to try again. He did and it worked the second time. It was just as painful, but I knew what to expect.

When all was said and done, only about 3 minutes had passed. And that was including the time it took for me to collect myself again.

The doctor apologized. Twice. I could tell he felt bad that it hurt me, but it had to get done. He knew it and I knew it. And truly, it was much less invasive than having a cesarean section, for both me and Binary Boy. After the doctor left, the nurse strapped back on the monitors and we stayed for almost another hour to make sure the baby’s heart rate went back up. It dropped pretty low right after the version. His heart rate rose back up quickly, thankfully, so we were discharged with a clean bill of health.

Now, we were warned that there is still a small chance Binary Boy could turn back around. A 5% chance to be exact, but it is rare. The only problem is, now, I’m paranoid, and I swear I feel like he’s right back where he started. Thankfully, I have my weekly prenatal appointment tomorrow, so they’ll be able to check via ultrasound if he is still head down they way he should be.

I have hope that he is, but honestly, when you’re in that 3% of women that have babies that are breech so late, it’s hard to not think you’ll be in that rare 5% of babies turning back after a version. I’ve heard that being a parent can drive you a little crazy, but, seriously, even before the baby is born? Oy.