Something’s Gotta Give

October 11, 2006

One down, one to go. Midterms, that is. I didn’t do well on the one yesterday. I don’t know for sure, but I just have that feeling that you get when you know you fucked up. I studied my ass off. Kevin can attest to that. So, I’m not exactly sure what went wrong.

Then again, my heart isn’t in it anymore. At least not how it used to be. This Anatomy class is the toughest of the first year vet tech classes, but it’s not that. Science just isn’t hard for me. I think I’m bored. I hate to admit that, because for once in my life I wish I could actually finish something, but I’m starting to get bored with this. Kevin said that it might just be that it’s taking so long.. and that might be. All I know is something’s gotta give. And soon.

I heard the best quote yesterday, while in my car on the way to class, listening to the show “Politics of Culture” on KCRW. The guest was Arianna Huffington and she was discussing her new book: On Becoming Fearless. She spoke about how people feel the need to hang onto projects they are bored of and/or push themselves to stick with something (ie a job or a relationship) they might not enjoy anymore for fear of looking like a failure. And she said something that made so much sense to me regarding that. She said, “You can complete a project by dropping it.

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Bug October 12, 2006 at 10:02 pm

“You can complete a project by dropping it.”

I need to staple this to my damn head *chuckle*

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passin bye October 15, 2006 at 7:45 pm

I hear you. I think we have all been there. At the same time, while quiting may be difficult and has all the societal attachments of assigning failure to the person involved, there are benefits to completing projects, tasks, etc.
Hey, you know that already.
I remember about 15 years ago facing the same dilemna, I was in a program leading to a diploma in a field I was never intending to work in.
I finished it anyways.
And you know what? I don’t regret it now.
Then, sure I did. And for a year or two after as I worked in a different career, I wished I had not “wasted” that time. But, as I grew more mature I started to see that it was a good thing.
Ok, I am lying a bit [or overstating things] I am certainly not mature. And never was…
But the fact remains that even though my lust for that program waned, it did serve me well in the long run.
But – you should dow hat you need to do – not listen to me nor anyone else!
And, maybe its just the weather, or the time of year, or just that the tedium of the studying and the course material is not living up to the dream
Who knows, 4 months from now things will look better, or get so much worse that you will *know* what to do.
But don’t take my advice, I can barely run my own life!

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Melissa October 23, 2006 at 2:38 pm

Well, what can I say to this one. I sort of panicked, I guess. I’m no one really and what passin by said really does make sense, but…

I do know that I saw how hard you worked, first hand, at Celebration Station and just know you would be doing the animals a disservice if you just up and quit. I am not, however, in your shoes.

See, I’m not even totally sure of which direction you are wanting to go so I have no right to my opinion, but if you are on your way to being a vet tech…or a vet… I just think you would lose out on helping so many more animals in your special way.

I know this sounds drastic and just a wee bit dramatic and, again… who am I? Just someone who has subscribed to your blog and find it refreshing to go to from time to time. Thank you for that…

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