Kevin says I shouldn’t write too many “downer” posts, but ya know what? It’s my blog and I’m not going to censor myself just ’cause I’m not in a happy-happy-joy-joy mood all the effing time.
So, on that note, I’ve been in a severe funk this past week. I always think that I won’t be this time of year and I always am. I keep thinking that maybe I won’t even notice that it’s September, but then I always do. Even now, I still think I won’t be in a funk next year. Always the optimist, I guess.
So.. just to make myself feel even better (sarcasm, anyone?), let me divulge why September puts me in such a funk (lucky you, huh?).
– Last year about this time we were all watching the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina in Florida, Alabama, Mississippi and, of course, Louisiana. Chaos and unhappiness erupted. Many innocent people and animals died. Sure, it wasn’t September when she made landfall, but September 1 was the day New Orleans residents (animal and human alike) watched the sunrise from their roofs.
– Five years ago we were watching as our nation was attacked by terrorists. That was an emotional roller coaster for everyone. Most people can remember that day vividly and know exactly what they were doing when it happened. 9/11 struck a deep emotional chord for all of us. Also, again, many innocent people and animals died.
– Then, in 2002, on September 11, I had to make the choice to euthanize my forever cat, Sophie. She had untreatable throat cancer in its final stages and was suffering. I held her until she took her last breath, rocking her like a baby in my arms while wrapped in one of my t-shirts that she loved to sleep on. Most veterinarians won’t allow that, but since I was pretty obviously dying inside, they allowed me to hold her during the injection. It was the first death I’ve ever experienced on a personal level and it tore my heart in pieces. I light a candle and say a little prayer in her remembrance every year on September 11. Sophie is the reason I decided to become a veterinary technician.
– Summer is officially over and the days become shorter. 🙁 Bye-bye sunshine.
That’s it. My reasons on why I wish I could sleep through this entire month and wake up in time to prepare for Halloween. There are too many unhappy memories associated with this month. Oh wait.. there’s one more. My birthday follows within a week of September 11. Anyone care to celebrate? No? Me neither.. :-/